I'm not stupid. Even my ego isn't so big that I can't see the obvious choice.
[ so...... that's that. Unless something else happens. Something else that, apparently, everyone around them thinks is obvious, and which Hikage is also here to talk about. Kind of. Obliquely. He shifts on his feet. ]
... Whatever. That's not the point. I don't know if she's going to choose, anyway... [ He pinches the bridge of his nose, closing his eyes. ] To be honest, lately, I... No, nevermind. How do you see me, Belph? Am I your rival?
Right, right. That's a different problem. Forget that part. [ HUFF. he's not about to debate belph's continual self-sabotage (again.) ] So what, then? Answer the question. I thought about this in the graveyard by myself for long enough already.
... I mean, it was a surprise when Steph brought it up, and I can't say it was something I ever thought about in the castle, but it kind of made sense?
Shut up. I don't want to know that you two gossip about me like that.
[ bullied even when he's not around. He looks a little exasperated, but at least that helps keep him from being embarrassed - indeed, it lets him settle into his usual straightforward self. ]
... It's not true, but it's not a lie, either. I don't know. Maybe the reason I'm not jealous is because I want to be part of your life, too. If you were a woman, I'd probably think that feeling was love.
[ because hikage is hikage, he is not thinking of it that way?? he's just sorting out his thoughts?? it's fine. don't worry about it. this stuff is easier when he looks at it clinically, like many things in his life. ]
You're one to talk, [ he retorts dryly. ] ... You're less horrified than I was imagining.
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I'm not stupid. Even my ego isn't so big that I can't see the obvious choice.
[ so...... that's that. Unless something else happens. Something else that, apparently, everyone around them thinks is obvious, and which Hikage is also here to talk about. Kind of. Obliquely. He shifts on his feet. ]
... Whatever. That's not the point. I don't know if she's going to choose, anyway... [ He pinches the bridge of his nose, closing his eyes. ] To be honest, lately, I... No, nevermind. How do you see me, Belph? Am I your rival?
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... You've heard what people say about us, right? Even Sanji.
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I don't! [ does he ] D-don't just say it like that!
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I've put the entire idea of relationships on indefinite hold.
[everyone thinking that the obstacle to steph and belph was communication but no it was actually a need for therapy, which steph knew and accepted?]
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[ his cheeks are turning red. help. he was expecting Belph to make fun of him, not shrug and give him a serious answer. ]
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... I mean, it was a surprise when Steph brought it up, and I can't say it was something I ever thought about in the castle, but it kind of made sense?
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What do you mean, it kind of made sense? [ wait, don't answer that. Hikage shakes his head. ] No... Nevermind. That possibility doesn't... bother you?
[ a beat. ]
... It's not true. But...
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[ bullied even when he's not around. He looks a little exasperated, but at least that helps keep him from being embarrassed - indeed, it lets him settle into his usual straightforward self. ]
... It's not true, but it's not a lie, either. I don't know. Maybe the reason I'm not jealous is because I want to be part of your life, too. If you were a woman, I'd probably think that feeling was love.
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... Well, you do have a lot of stuff to figure out.
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You're one to talk, [ he retorts dryly. ] ... You're less horrified than I was imagining.